24th October 2024

 25th October 2024 00:29 a.m.

This was supposed to start exactly 10 days ago when I was or exactly completed 30 years to life. Again that's a confusion for me 30 completed or 30 started. Whatever it may be. Let's talk about yesterday.

I happen to visit a hospital. The person I was seeing was fed through a pipe which went through the nose and then to the intestine. My biggest fear. Even I asked a friend of mine is there anything that when I feel like that's enough for life a medicine or injection that doctor can inject and I'm done with life. The answer was "NO" However, if you aren't responding to the treatment and your financial condition is weak or the treatment won't be sufficient in that case there's some kind of undertaking that your guardian, parents, kids depending on who you are the treatment will be stopped and you walk the path simply lying on the bed and suddenly a name becomes a body.

Later a personal life closure. I don't know why I can't take firm decision I don't want anyone to cry or to be hurt by me. It's time to change. However, closure was not as expected, still stuck but towards it.

Lesson: Each decision of yours will benefit someone and hurt someone. You can't win.